The Ups and Downs during CD21

Dont know what to feel today. I was thinking that maybe, just maybe the fact that i'm documenting it and trying to focus on what I am thinking and feeling this could be the month and of course the fact that this month is number 2 and I am now starting to feel a bit like a statistic!

Already I which this TWW was over. Wish I could test NOW!

Been waking up at odd hours for days now which kinda suck as I'm sure its mucking my temp.

8DPO for me. Temp went up only slightly today, above the coverline though. Have a look below.

CD 21 Chart

This TWW just gets more demoralising each day, already at a mere 8DPO I which it was over. Just wish it was over - AF or BFP which is it tell me NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!

Seriously this TTC stuff is mind bending, one minute I'm thinking yeh this is it, then I'm thinking no don't be silly it's definitely not this month so just get over it. It could seriously send a person insane.

DPO 7

My chart - 7DPO /CD20

So here's my chart today at DPO 7 or CD 20. Noticed the dip in temp today? I'm really crossing my fingers its an implantation dip. I don't feel much different from all the other cycles though :/.

I heard most women experience increased fatigue during pregnancy especially during the first trimester. I don't feel it. I feel the same.  

I do have some cramps more of a mild cramp or dull pressure low in the abdomen. In fact it feels similar to period cramps with little twingers and pokes. 

Swollen or tender breasts are another pregnancy symptoms which I understand can begin very soon after conception. But I experience that EVERY TIME im getting my AF. I always have swollen, tender and very sensitive to touch breasts. Nothing new here.

Many women apparently also noticed more CM than normal during early pregnancy.  I am now getting white, creamy and wet (like lotion) which occur steadily throughout. Though im pretty sure I experienced increased CM close to AF on my other cycles too. 

If you read my last post this is going to sound interesting! Women also report extra vivid dreams during early pregnancy that sometimes continue throughout the pregnancy. It is thought that the increase in hormones that are the cause for many other pregnancy symptoms are also responsible for these types of dreams.

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I dreamed AF came :(

I have heard that lots of women dream about babies when they are pregnant. And I dreamt I had my period. ????

I know I can't take this seriously but just thought it was interesting. This dream actually kinda freaked me out because it was me in the dream not like I was watching myself.

I must be projecting my fears in my dreams. I am now 6DPO so I have over one week more to go before I find out.  

BBs are sore and nipples are sooooooooooo sensitive. Also am having mood swings. One moment I'm the happiest girl alive the next I feel suicidal. Bahhh.. Not much of cramps, slight twinges here and there and creamy CM.

I hope I still have a chance of getting preggers this cycle.  

Anyway I googled period dream interpretation and got this:

It is a common dream for women and its interpretation is mostly positive. Dreaming about having your menses can be a symbolic of releasing tension and worry. Women are often concerned about their reproductice system (ie. pregnancy, sexual relationships or their body's time clock). Parallel to the menstrual cycle there is a monthly emotional cycle that most women are aware of and experience. During the time of menstruation there is a release of anxiety and an attainment of emotional balance. As a dream symbol it suggests that some difficult times may be over for you and that you can relax. On occasion this dream suggests a loss of energy and disappointment.